My boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me the other night. I've been through a lot, experienced a lot of pain in my life, which I don't particularly like to emote about online since everyone's got their problems but...this really is a unique type of grief.

He was my first real love, at times I really thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with him, and I just don't know how to handle the loss of my mate and my best friend. The worst part is that it was the right thing to do. We both could feel that the relationship was going a bit south, he just had "courage" to end it before me. I never wanted to confront him about it, just to keep from feeling what I'm feeling right now. I'm hurt over some of the reasons he gave me for why he felt the way he did, but I can't help that. Doesn't mean I don't love him though. That's what makes it hard, right?

What am I supposed to do? How do you get over something like this? Do you try to keep yourself busy and forget about it? I mean, it's like some important part of you died and you have to grieve it, but besides my dog dying a few years ago, I've never had to go through the ordeal of someone I love dying on me (thankfully). So I just don't know how to get through this. It's something that changes your whole life around. A whole part of you is just...gone, and things will never be the same again.

Talking helps, distracting yourself helps, realizing that this is something everyone goes through helps, but when it comes down to it, only time is what's going to make it better, and time isn't something you can control so....Needless to say I'm a sad puppy right now, and the future is looking uncertain, even frightening.

Yeah. Summertime Blues.



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